Hello! Yes, I'm still alive.
So, that furniture thing I already showed you earlier, I have to present it once more this week. And I'm really a bit disappointed in how I prepared that... But we'll see, it might still be fine.
Anyway, I'll be just really, really relieved when wednesday is here and half over.
I still don't know where I will spend my summer. Makes me nervous.
One minute I'm so confident about everything and the next I'm all messed up and confused and don't know which step to take next.
Right now I'm somewhere in the middle of these states.
I really want to get things in order. Also, my feelings, if I'm perfectly honest.
Reclaim the city.
But also, leave the city.
For new beginnings.
I'd really like that. Go to work every day and explore a new city in the evenings.
For example, with my camera.
I hardly use it these days. And I hate that. But there's so many other things. And so little time, actually.
And today the weather makes me angry and I don't want to freeze so I stay under the blanket and am not productive at all and my room is one big mess and now there's even crumbs in my bed because I ate rice cakes for breakfast because I don't even have an appetite.
Wow, fuck you.
So, I'm not half as content as I pretend to be, just so you know.
All right, so, stick to the routine. Bit by bit and in the end everything will be done and fine and over.
Distant, fading memories.
Everything what seems so urgent now will turn into a distant, fading memory eventually.
Just remember that.
